I can't believe it, this game is an abomination. The closer I got to packaging it, the more problems I had to deal with. I'm serious, I believe it was ACTIVELY RESISTING my efforts to finish it. This unholy grail of bad games has become sentient and ruins my mood on every step.

I had to PLAY TEST this mutated godforsaken demented piece of shit, can you believe it? Almost 9 hours of my precious time pissing me off? I mean it's not as if it wasn't working initially, it was just that over time small things such as sounds not working 5 minutes into the "game", some textures just disappearing on me, sound files not being recognized, started creeping like tumours popping up on a bloated alien corpse.

And just when I thought that there's nothing else that can break down, it frikkin did. There were PHANTOM FILES scattered all over the project hierarchy, even things that were NEVER ADDED!!! How on earth is that even possible? I'm absolutely positive that a slightly higher power than myself was actually involved, as if warning me "Don't do it man, you don't want to open Pandora's box". I would've been better off opening 10 of these damn it, the amount of garbage that I had to deal with before I finally managed to package the game, was more work than what I had to do to develop the blasted thing in the first place!

I'm uploading the game as I'm writing this, and you know what, I think this isn't over. I think something is gonna go wrong again, my connection will drop for a fraction of a second and I'll have to restart the process again, a packet will get lost and some small tiny file will get corrupted and I'll have to re-upload the game, the power will go out and leave me in the stone age, an EMP will fry my motherboard...again, maybe even a micro asteroid will pierce my HDD, ANYTHING to piss me off one last time. It's as if the Gaming World is resisting my efforts to further defile it with this plague of a game. I don't care. I will make my anger known, even if the whole gaming world hates me as a result.

Edit: I knew it...my PC is now trying to stop me. I'm serious, you can't make this up. Every 3 seconds it fired off a system sound, that was not listed in the system sounds. It wasn't long after I restarted my rig that I lost my connection for an hour or so. If the next thing on the list is a crazed baboon cracking my skull open like a rotten coconut and smashing my workstation in pieces with a rock, I will not be surprised. At all.

Now that I re-read what I've just written, I realized just how stupid this whole thing is. I think I did a pretty good job at condensing every drop of hatred I've pent up over several years into one, golden turd. Here are some of my inspirations, not in chronological order of course:

Diablo 3 (AH), Destiny, Watch Dogs, every AC after the first (except Black Flag, that was kinda alight), EVOLVE, PayDay2, APB, Hex, Heroes of Might and Magic, Too Human, MGSV, Planetside, 60% of Steam Greenlight + Jim "Fucking" Sterling son, Borderlands Pre-Sequel, Battlefront, tons of CoD's, The Division, FarCry 4, "Generic Sandbox game with 100000000000 collectibles and no other content", the Deus Ex scandal, the Square Enix soap operas, SWTOR, that Sim City crap,  Arckham Knight, The Order: 188fuckyou, Titanfall (if you can even remember), Konami (since really, listing their annoyances will probably make me build another game), Halo 5, Godzilla, Need For Speed, Final Fantasy XIII (all of them) Thief..., Duke Nukem Forever (I hate to do this Duke, but yeah, made it even worse),Tony Hawk, Elder Scrolls Online, Star Trek, Battlefield 4, Aliens: Colonial Marines, Ninja Gaiden 3,  and many many more.

Basically every game where I noticed greed, laziness, ulterior motives, rip-offs and blatant lies, is on this list, there's just too many for me to type. Don't think that only the AAA with their half-baked games are the only ones at fault, the amount of Early Access garbage is also a fairly annoying thing.

Don't get me wrong, I love a good game, heck I loved the previous Halo games (xcept maybe 4), I liked the first Borderlands, I like a lot of games, but few of them are new. I know, there are still good games out there like The Witcher and Dark Souls, but in general in recent years it's more often than not that a game is simply boring, annoying and highly, highly expensive without deserving it. It's not really the games the piss me off to be honest, it's the people behind them. The greedy publisher, the lazy developer, the clueless story writer, the unqualified designer. You know what, I'm just going to summarize this:

Everything I hate about games is here.

//End of log. Any future updates (if any) will be in the update notes section.

Right...where do I start. I was making a DLC button, since every self respecting game nowadays has to have a 50 year long season pass where you sign up with your frikkin house, so I was pretty motivated to make it obvious that more effort went into shoving it into the player's face rather than the actual development cycle.

Anyway, technicalities aside, final result was a project corruption. I don't want to explain it, and you probably wouldn't get it unless I start uploading pictures with the logic behind it, and screw that. Long story short, I narrowed the problem down to the one and only level that I had, and basically salvaged as much as possible and started a new project. To be honest I really don't know why I bothered, but I ended up restitching the broken pieces that I managed to scrape from the whole incident. 

So after remaking to damn thing again (I actually dedicated myself this time around...serious or not serious, I did dump some time into it) I realized that my initial diagnosis of the problem was wrong. It was one of the damn buttons that broke the main menu, that in turn broke the main level, that in turn broke the game mode that in turn broke the whole damn project.

I ended up setting up a version control system to prevent this from happening to the actually (I hope) good game that I'm making, so at least I came out with something positive. So yeah, now I'm back at square 95/100, where I left off, only with Perforce comfortably sitting on my HDD, and a slightly pissed face.

... 

This game is so bad, it doesn't even want to be made. Probably another reason to just keep it tucked away and dump it somewhere in the Dark Net, the deepest pits of our wonderful cesspool we call internet, where nobody will find it... I dunno. If another company pisses me off, I'm definitely releasing this turd in a protest.

After many breaks, I think the game is finally in the worst possible state. Every time a major publisher pissed me off, I worked on this game. Every time an indie developer pissed me off, I worked on this game. Every time I watched some of the Jim Sterling's videos and got pissed off, I worked on this game. Basically I was working on it only when I was pissed. And I don't think there's anything I can add to make it less entertaining. It's been saturated with the rotten stench of a Frankenstein made from lowest quality human waste.

There are no redeeming values here, this is the culmination of all my frustration with the current industry status quo. I despise what 95% of the developers/publishers do at this point. Be it the Deus Ex pre-order scandal, the cut up games with DLC (Destiny...you bastards), Konami's bullshit, the massive pre-release season passes, the uninspired sequels (AC anyone?), the boring new IP (The Order 1886 and the likes), DLC platforms like Evolve and The Division with no real content, the unoptimised console ports, the insane prices of games that don't deserve the tag (Battlefront was my main point of anger), customisation options that are really just re-skins (and sometimes just recolors) of the same asset, the crap on Steam Greenlight that barely qualifies for games, Digital Homicide speaking for every developer with their favourite ""WE" support the indie dev scene" (how dare you?) and lots, lots more.

And now, as I stare into this abomination of a game, I have a doubt. It would be extremely hypocritical of me to release this game before I have released anything acceptable to my "yeah, it's not bad" standards. Not to mention that it was made with Unreal Engine 4. THE BEST engine out there, that's free, and here I made THE WORST possible game my despaired mind could conjure. It would be a shame to thank Epic for their work by releasing such a stinker onto the net. 

So I am torn. Initially I wanted to release this onto Greenlight for 100$ in order to make the picture complete, but I have a feeling some crazy schmuck would actually buy it, leaving a bad taste in my mouth. So it will be for free, unlike some publishers, I can't ask for a ridiculous price on a game that's an actual punishment to play. In fact, it shouldn't be played, it should merely exist. I've essentially made the denominator for garbage. I've set the standard for crap. Any one of the things present in this game is a sin against the gaming community, you can imagine what the whole thing looks like.

What's  worse, for now we don't have the community to ask the question to. Not  to mention that I don't really know if Greenlight/Steam is a place for this crap. It's already filled with sewage, one more turd in the pool is just going to make it stink more. On the other hand, my frustration keeps pushing me. I can't focus on my "actual game" project while this dilemma is eating at my brain cells.

What to do, what to do. If I release it, will gamers just see it as the next piece of shit that hit Greenlight, or as a symbol of the worst the gaming industry has to offer? Will the next bad game be attributed the status of an Atrocity (that's why I called it that by the way) or will it just be waved away like all the others? I want to use this game to SHAME the greed out of corporate. I want it to be a mirror for the greedy company, I want it to reflect the disappointment and agony of franchise fans when a game is rushed or outright unfair to the source material. 

Playing games used to be fun, now it feels like working. Mind  games, nickel and diming, release tricks, hooks, timers, it's become a frickin' minefield. I don't even know why I'm writing this here. I guess I need to read my motivation in black and white to come to an answer.

Edit: I just read that SquareEnix will cut up Final Fantasy 7 into episodes and spread out the content.
Edit2: I just saw the release date discrepancy of Dark Souls 3.
Edit3: Hitman...Square....Fuck this.

I'm releasing the Kraken.

After a healthy dose of poison during the New Year event, I was a bit sidetracked with some other projects I have running. I somehow decided to run a Kickstarter for our card game, to at least see if it's gonna be of anyone's interest.

Anyway, back to the usual stuff. While I have made some progress with the main release game, one which will remain unnamed until at least 60% completion, I remembered about this garbage of a game. I was yet again reminded of the reason behind developing it, and with my new found hatred for the AAA and Indie industries alike, I decided to finish the Atrocity. I hate shovelware, dishonest greed and many other things, I will make an effort to pour it all into one horrible,deadly package. This reinvigoration is a direct result of Jim Sterling's many videos. EA's, Ubisoft's, Konami's and every other goddamn corporation and sleazy indie "dev" that has defiled this sacred medium through scams and ripoffs have also had a significant impact on my disposition.

Therefore I will now complete this abomination, put it on this website, and at least be satisfied that I have expressed my disgust with the current state of the industry in the loudest manner I could think of. What is a better way of showing these corporate vacuum cleaners my utmost disrespect to their products. Batman, Battlefront, and every other past and future game out there, that's been rushed, gutted, dissected, spit out and resold in pieces, will be labelled as an Atrocity. And as such, I have to properly represent it.

I've been doing some thinking on the design perspective, and I think I've come up with even more ways to make the player want to commit suicide. The ending that I've come up with is going to be especially deadly. I have no doubt in my mind that should anyone endure 666 hours of agonizing gameplay, seeing the ending  will create the urge to willingly asphyxiate oneself with the keyboard cable.